What Do I Do?

I've had enough! I'm sick of all the shit people spread, their selfishness, their ability to lie right to your face and expect you to take it - the list goes on. As for one person, I've never felt hatred with so much passion towards them, and I know that it's only going to get worse. The amount of times I've sat stewing, waiting for the right moment to say what needs to be said is countless: I've never wished death upon anyone, but I sure as hell wish it upon him!

I honestly don't believe that everyone in this household is as clueless and they let on. I mean, what happens in that room (right next to mine - and my mum's - with paper thin walls), under this roof, and at that amplitude, in such a quiet environment, with no one hearing it except me? Nar! That can't be possible. I really don't want to be the one that could potentially destroy relationships within this family, but I may have to be.

I actually have no idea what I'm going to do?! I don't want to be in this situation at all, and I know that if I leave it, especially without saying a word; it's only going to get worse. I can't let it get to that point and something needs to be done. But what? What do I say? When do I say it?

This has got to be, the biggest conundrum I've ever had to face!

Why Do The Good Die Young?

On Monday 30th May, 2011 - a friend of mine took his life (reasons still unknown). I hadn't know him for longer than a year, and we didn't hang out a lot but right from the first day we met, we got on really well. I just wanna write this as my tribute to him.

Dear Sam,
The first time we met you were drunk and walking up through the town with two of my really good mates, after talking for all of 5 minutes, we headed back to the pub for a few more drinks - that's where I got to know you properly. You were such a great bloke, full of life and had an uncanny gift for making people laugh and smile. After that night, we continued to speak on Facebook and exchange texts, as well as hang out on the odd occasion. Georgina's BBQ was epic. As soon as you turned up, you was the life of the party (a quality of yours that will be gravely missed). I could go on to mention other times that we've been graced by your presence, but to be honest, a lot of them I don't remember well or, at all because of being so drunk.

We're all going to miss you, Sam. None of us will ever forget you and I just hope that you really are in a better, happier, pain-free place - that's what you would of wanted. Although I didn't get the opportunity to get to know you to the fullest extent; I feel privileged to have even known you at all. I'm proud to have called you my friend. We love you.

R.I.P. Sam
(07/07/1990 - 30/05/2011)